Sense of Self



Lost

I've lost my sense of self.



The longer I feel that I stay at this job, the more that I feel myself slipping away.



What were my goals?



Who... am I again?



What did I want?



Is this what I'm willing to accept that my life looks like forever more?



This can't be it. It can't be that I just don't fit into ANY corporate mold, there has to be SOMEWHERE for me, some NICHE position or title just for me. I have to earn it?



I haven't earned it yet?



I read an article this week about how to keep your employee that is "Quiet Quitting". The behaviors displayed by a high performer about to quit sounded like someone who realized their relationship isn't working the way they wanted it to.



My general manager keeps asking me if I'm okay every day. Keeps stopping by to check on me now.



It only took him 15 minutes of a 48min random meeting for him to finally understand that I have PTSD.



That doesn't make us any less of a corporation.



My therapist agrees.



Maybe when I return to myself, there will be brighter days ahead.

Maybe when I remember who I am, I'll have a clearer sense of where I'm going.

Maybe when I submerge myself back into my spirituality, I will feel more connected to the world.



Until then I will ensure to:

Make every day brilliant -MB



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